I'm broken.

Another day at work are finally over. I can't say that its particualry fun to leave home at 6 in the morning and not come home until between 7 and 8 in the evening. On top of that I'm spending my days making security doors and windows for prisons.

Oh, the irony.

Let's not even go there.

If any doctors happens to read this, here's something for you.

I can't drive my car anymore. It's horrible and annoying. It's not like I forgot how to drive a car or something, just something happen to me. When driving I feel like im losing my balance, feels like any minute im just gonna lose the control over my car and crash it somewhere. Its annoying as hell and I have no idea whats wrong with me, or how to fix it.

I mean how can you even lose your balance in a car?

But whenever I get this feeling I have to keep every ounce of my focus just to not crash somewhere, and its staring to get really scary. Especially now when I got my job and have to drive my car everyday. Sometimes I'm panicing when this happens, and all I can think about is how not to drive the car right off the road. Even if its a big straight road and no one else is around.

How long will it take til the day when I'm too tired from work to keep my focus and actually crash somewhere?

I know, I know "Go and see a doctor".

Just that im really bad at going to the doctor unless I have to bring an arm or a leg in a bag with me. Besides, from old experience doctors never have any answers anyway.

I bet a doctor could use your whole life just taking tests, and who got time for that shit? But yeah, I really need to do something about this, before something happens.