Vacation.

So, my last week of vacation started today. The first week I dedicated to whiskey. The second week I dedicated to rest up after a week of whiskey.

I feel I should probably do something more constructive with my third and last week of vacation. But I honestly don't know what. My friend asked me to go with him, his wife and his kids to the amusement park someday this week.

Actually, it was his wifes idea, otherwise he wouldnt go. I suggested we take the train there, because I dont feel like driving. And I kinda had whiskey in my mind as well.

I didnt really care a lot for whiskey before, all I saw it as was as one of the ingredients of irish coffee. But recently I have actually started to enjoy the whiskey itself. I've found out that I can pretty much drink a whole bottle of whiskey and not get particulary drunk from it. Just getting a little bit of buzz.

And I dont get a hangover from it.

I hate hangovers.

Anyway, today is monday and I have exactly seven days on me to do something constructive with my vacation. Problem is, lots of things cost money, I dont like to spend money.

Well I would like to be able to spend money, but in the situation I'm in I really can't. I like spending money as much as the next guy though, I just dont really have any to spend.

As I'm writing this my friend called me up. Aparently he have bought some computer from some guy in another town, and wants me to drive him there and pick it up tomorrow. So I guess that tomorrow is planned already, for now.

And, yay! I love driving car!

Not so much. But i'll do it anyway I guess. And I guess that means no whiskey today either.

So I guess it'll be cigarettes and coffee and online games today. Nice way to spend a day on your vacation huh?

I'm not crazy, Yet.

I might not write here as often as I used to do.

Thats mostly because I dont like to write while on a whiskey buzz. If I just had someone that would type down all the shit I have in my head, we could open a library.

Shits been a little crazy, I admit that. Some people might think of me as crazy, and I'm not sure I can really blame them. It might seem like I have no idea what I'm doing, but really, thats not the case.

I know exactly what I'm doing and I know exactly where I want this to end. But things arent always that easy, unfortunatly. And to be honest, sometimes I think that my head is going to explode.

Eventually I'm hoping that all this will lead to a nice quiet life with the one person in the world I have ever loved. And that is what keeps me going, thats what keeps me from just giving up and say "Fuck this, im out".

I'm not a huge fan of complicated things, and I'm certainly not a very patient person. But when it comes to her, well its just different. I could never walk away from her while I'm alive. No matter how complicated things are. Now if you knew me, you'd know thats dedication. I would literary go to hell and back if I thought that would make her happy. Because if anyone in this universe deserves to be happy, its her. And to be completely honest, I find happiness in her beeing happy. It's as simple as that.

Some people might think I can find happiness elsewhere. Or that I can be happy with someone else. They have no idea how wrong they are. I'm just not even intrested in finding happiness anywhere else than at her side. There was a time when I thought money would make me happy. I'm older and wiser now. I realize that money would make things less complicated, and that itself would make it easier to reach the happiness I'm after. But money in itself could never make me happy.

I guess this is just me saying to you all who read or follow this blog. I'm not giving up. And please dont push me. I have already given up both friends and family because they told me I'm crazy, because they told me to let this go and to move on with my life. And I will give up on every single person who knows me that will say anything like it. That includes you.

If you dont like what I'm trying to do, keep it to yourself. If you think I'm crazy for what I'm trying to do, you have no faith in me and I dont want to be your friend anyway. Just need to get the word out there, be supportive or be quiet.

Or be gone.

On a more serious note.

Awhile ago I stumbled upon a thread in a forum. Nothing special about that, since I'm doing that pretty much every day.

This thread however started by linking to this news site. It said that this one man in Northern California had killed an older man, and later he said he did it because this man had sexually abused him when he was young. Now it doesnt matter if it was true, or if he just made all that up as a lame atempt of an excuse for what he did. The guy (killer) got sentenced to 9 years in prison for the killing anyway.

Ofcourse, if his story is true then I think the man who got killed got what he deserved, if that.

Anyway, as in all forums things gets derailed and the subject goes from the original post to  discussing about pedophiles and sex offenders.

In my opinions those are the worst crimes anyone can commit, even worse than murder. But thats just me.

What surprised me though was that there is actually people out there who is defending pedophiles and child molesters.

What the hell....?

Saying stuff like "They are sick", "they cant help themselves", "They should get treatment" etc etc.

Really?

How would you feel as a parent if anything like this happen to your child? Would you be all understanding and saying "Aww well thats ok, he's sick and cant help himself"? The whole "beeing sick" to me is just an extremely lame excuse to get away with one of the worst crimes a person can comitt.

Because, even if it's true that they actually are sick, it's not like they dont know that what they are about to do is not only very very wrong, but also illegal. I mean, should a Kleptoman get away with bank robbing because they are sick? Should a psychopath get away with murder because they are sick?

Ofcourse they shouldnt. And if they are so sick that they really cant know the difference between what is right and wrong, I would believe they should get capital punishment anyway.

Treatment? Who is gonna pay for that? You gonna pay for that with tax money? Tax money that the victims families help paying?

"Not only did this guy rape your child, now you are going to help paying for his (so called) treatment"

Does that sound right to you?

I can only come up with one reason why anyone wanna openly defend childmolestors, and thats because they are one themselves.

When it comes to crimes like this, crimes against defenceless children, I really really wish we had death penalty in this country.

Sources:

Fox News
The discussion thread.

I've got a Phd in internet browsing.

I havent been writing anything here for awhile now. I've been working, and when I come home from work im too damn tired to think straight. And on the weekends I've been drinking whiskey. I dont usually drink, not alot anyway. But lately there has been some drinking.

Anyway. I like internet, there's alot of funny shit going on there, updated 24/7. Usually when I come home from work, after I've taken a shower and eaten some, I sit down and try to find funny stuff off the internet. People have been asking me: "How do you find all this stuff?".

Ok well, if you just google "fun" you will get like a bazillion hits of which 99.5% of it is pretty useless. Or old, or both.

What I start by doing is check facebook. There's almost never anything fun going on there though, this person did this on mafia wars, that person found a crippled cow on farmville etc etc. Seems like people only use facebook for the games on there, I think I'm the only person on facebook that doesnt play ANY  of the facebook games. Once I've confirmed that nothing funny is going on on facebook as usual, I go to my favourite gaming forum. There's usually not alot of "fun" stuff going on there either, not fun in that way anyway. Mostly gaming geeks arguing over some stupid stuff in a game or something. It's amusing at most to read those arguments.

After that I visit a website where people only post funny pictures. There are not always funny either, but its usually worth the time to go through them. Then I go by regretful morning to see whats new there, just like the other places its usually only a few funny things on there as well. But it's also worth the time to check it out.

I'm saving the best for last. Now this is a website that is really really hard to leave. It has everything from weird funny pictures to amazing stories and "wtf news". And every time you click on a link it opens up a new page with 10 other links on it. Atleast 1-3 of these new links are interesting, and every one of those links brings you to another page with 10 more links and so on. Damn I love that site, cant get enough from it. You wanna make sure you get the goodies though, really no point in clicking on the "10 tips how the get fit for the beach" when there's a "Man sues his siamesic twin for indecent exposure".

Man... I can stay on this site forever...


Well folks, there you have it. My little guide on how to make a boring evening funny :)

sneak preview?

I know I havent really told anyone, but I'm writing a book. Or atleast I'm trying to. One of the reasons I havent told anyone is because this isnt the first book I've started to write, but I surely hope that I will finish this one. I obviously never finished any of the other ones lol. And before anyone asks, no its not an autobiography, and its far far from finished. As I said, it might never even get finished. Anyway, I thought my faithful readers (i write that with sarcasm) should get a chance to get to read a short bit from what I've got so far. And sorry ladies, its not a romance, more like a thriller I would say.

Enjoy.

"My name is Henry Jonas. I'll be 35 years old tomorrow. Tomorrow I will also become a killer. My victim does not yet know what awaits him, he's still asleep from the drugs I gave him.

       I had my first experience with death when I was 8 years old. Me and some friends were playing in a small forest close to where we lived, when we found this local woman who had hung herself. While all the other kids ran off screaming and yelling, I just stood there. Watching her. It was almost as if I were hypnotized, I couldnt take my eyes off her. It was beautiful. The woman herself was not a beautiful sight, with her swollen blue face, eyes halfway popped out of her skull. But the scene itself, it was so quiet. There was no blood, just the woman hanging there in the tree, silent. Never again would she speak another word, never again would she laugh or cry. The whole thing was like poetry without words, like a rare piece of art. Later in my life I would understand that what I had seen that day was the ultimate sacrifice, the sacrifice of ones own life. But right then and there it was as if I felt a connection with this woman. I must have been standing there for atleast 15 minutes, it was as if time stood still. There was nothing else but me and her. Even today, almost 30 years later, I can still see her when I close my eyes. The sirens from the police cars woke me up from my mysterious daydream, and I somehow understood that I had to leave before they got there. The thought of having adults question me about this scared me alot more than the woman herself did. I didn't know her name, but in my mind I called her Jessica. She followed me through my childhood like a big sister. Jessica was always there, in the back of my head, ready to give me advice, ready to comfort me. I never had alot of friends when I grew up, I always kept to myself. But that was ok, I wasnt really intrested in friends anyway. They thought I was weird, I thought they were childish, even beeing a child myself. But I could always count on Jessica to be there for me."

Sexmonsters!

First off.

I would like to ask all my readers (thats right, both of you) to try and give me some feedback on this blog. A quiet audience is hard to please. It would also make it easier for me to try and estimate how many (if any) readers I have. So please take a minute to let me know what you think of this blog so far. If you dont have an account here and dont want to make one, you can always leave a comment on my facebook. So, give me some love! Show me that you exist!

Second off.




Women are sexmonsters. They just tend to hide it very well. Just think of all the porn women read all the time.

Porn you ask?

Notice how I said read. Thats the difference between men and women. Men watch porn while women read porn. As an example, take all those Jane Austen books.

Porn.

Just because there's no nude pictures in the books doesnt make it any less porn. The pictures (and the real action) is whats going on inside the womans mind when she reads.

Then they cover up their porn with words like "romance", because they dont want to admit to beeing addicted to porn.

Why do you think by the way that its mostly women who are all obsessed about vampires? Its not because they are romantic. Or because they look good. Its because of the sex.

A vampire is the only man a woman know for certain will go down on her everyday for atleast 1 week per month.

Ofcourse they find that appealing! Most guys would want a girlfriend like that as well.