I have a dream.

So I've been told that I do stupid, irresponsible stuff most of the time, and been called out to be weird and odd for that. But why?

I do have a masterplan, I really do. Just because you dont know of my plans, or because you dont understand them I'm stupid and dont make sense? I'm not going to reveal my masterplan, because its mine. But it involves not beeing bored to death.

So, if I quit my job, sell everything I own and jump on the first plane I can find room at on the airport, its actually part of my plan. It may seem like a stupid thing to do, and it might even be stupid in a way. But from my point of view its not stupid.

It doesant really matter if I end up doing prison time in south africa for driving without driving license, or if I end up having to build a raft out of coconut shells to get off some deserted island. I would still not see it as a loss.

Years from now (I hope) when I'm dying I can either pat myself on the back and say to myself,

"Good boy Zan, you have worked hard all your life and you have spend your entire life in the safety of your own backyard. You didnt take any risks at any time, and can now die knowing you have always been safe, always made rational desicions."

Or I can say,

"Yeah, things got really messy a few times, and I screwed up alot along the way. And here I am, and old man cherishing his memories of the adventures he had when he was young. Things might have looked really bad at times, but these days I can look back and laugh about it. Atleast I know I did everything in my power to live a full life"

Which one do you think I'll chose?

I see people everyday that in my opinion have empty, mellow lives. But its their choices, and I'm not telling them they are crazy for that. If they wanna live a safe, secure and BORING life, its their choice.

Work at the same place for 50 years, have your house, your car, your dog, your summer house. With every single year looking exactly the same. Work, eat, sleep and get drunk on the weekends. And you call this a life? You call me weird? The only thrilling things that'll ever happen in your life will be when you gossip about what others have done in their lives.

Thanks, but no thanks.