Patience is a virtue.

I have no patience, none at all. I have no patience with people in general, or with stupidity. Stupidity isnt always the same as unintelligent mind you. There's lots of intelligent people who are stupid out in the world, just look at your loca politician and the desicions thay make.

I most certainly dont have any patience at all when things are supposed to be one way, but goes in the oposite direction. I dont see the point in that at all. Really I dont. If something is supposed to be one way, but other people make sure its not what its supposed to be, I just wanna punch someone in the face. Really hard. What is the point in working towards getting something wrong? How are people like that thinking, or arent they thinking at all? "Hmm, lets put alot of time and effort into making this completely wrong". Really people?

Maybe its something wrong with me. Maybe its my innate laziness that makes me want to do stuff right the first time so I dont have to do it all over again. I'm not going to try and hide it, I am lazy. I'm not doing anything I dont absolutely have to do, unless I actually enjoy doing it. But most of the time, anything that is even related to working I dont enjoy.

Now, as I said I have no patience. That is not to be misstaken for my stubborness though. I'm as stubborn as a rock, in the meaning that rock actually are stubborn. I mean try to tell a rock that it's actually an apple, it'll still be a rock no matter how persistant you are. Now thats stubborn right? These two traits I have, I find contradicting each other more often than not. If something does go wrong, I really have no patience trying to fix it, but at the same time I am way to stubborn to not fix it. How's that for glutton for punishment? Aparently self torture is i my nature, and I cant help it.

Yesterday I tried to fix an audio book so that I could put it on my phone, so I can listen to it wherever I am. Thats usually no problem, most audio books have few files and are easy to manage. Now this one had a bazillion files all less than 400 kb, rather than the usual 20ish files all between 5-10 mb. Now this wouldnt really had been a problem unless it was because when I put them files on my phone, they get all mixed up. I dont wanna listen to 53 sec of the first chapter followed by 44 sec of the 7th chapter, followed by 37 sec of the 3rd chapter. Well you see my point.

So I figured that I will make each CD in to 1 seperate file. It doesnt sound very hard and complicated now does it? So I downloaded a bunch of audio convert programs from the internet. First one i tried I fell in love with. It was so easy. Put all files in one place, press a button and have them all joined together in 1 file in another place. It cant be much easier than that. Only when I was going to listen to this new file I found what was wrong. Because the program I used was just a trial version I got a commersial message in my audio book every 10 sec. We cant have that now can we? I tried one of the other programs that I had downlaoded, this was a free software.

It was almost as easy to work with as the first one, put file there, get 1 separate file somewhere else. So i did this with all 20 CD's. Now I had 20 files, each around 60-80 mb, instead of having around 1500 files all 20-400 kb. Then I see something. My files, that I just made arent named the way I told them to be named. Ok, no big deal, I'll just rename them all. So I'm fixing all the tags on my files, name, album, artist, genre and all that. Then I put it in windows media player in order to convert them so I can put them on my phone. Only when the files are showing on the media player they arent named the way I named them still.

Now had it been that i mis spelled titles or something I would have understood, it would have all been my fault. But this wasnt the case. 1 of my files said it was some dance collection whatever thingy, it even had a cover picture!! What the,.... I didnt even had that picture anywhere on my computer. Some of the other files said "Learn Korean", im pretty darn sure I have never wanted to learn korean, and I'm very sure that I did not name my audio book files that way. Not to speak of that some of the tags were written on some squiggly language (probably korean then I guess). Now these tags refused to be changed! no matter how many times I renamed them. Granted that it was still my audio book despite the names of the files, but still! When I put the files in my phone I want them all in order in one place so I can easily make a playlist that works the way I want it to. But with files having random korean names, my files are all over the place once put in the phone.

This is one example of the things I dont have patience with. But because my stubborness, I sat up til 5 am this morning trying to fix this. Eventually I had to give up because I was falling asleep, and I didnt want to have to punch my computer/phone in the "face" for doing it wrong.